I went shopping and I think I was hungry because.....

I really wanted some of these:


But, instead I had one of these:

I wish I could write a post about how I really wanted the cadbury mini eggs and even had them in my shopping cart, but ended up putting them back and went for the Fiber One 90 calorie bars instead. But I can't. The truth is, the fiber one bars were already in my shopping cart. I still wanted the cadbury eggs. I have not had any this year. It was probably the first time I have walked down the "seasonal" aisle since Valentine's. But thanks to wal-mart's poor selection, I could not find any mini-bags of the eggs, in fact I'm not sure I even saw the big bags. I avoided that disaster, didn't I? Even after that, I decided getting a bag of peanut m&m's at the checkout would be just as good as the cadbury eggs. Well, someone must be watching over me because I chose a checkout line that just happened to have no individual sized candy. So when I got out to my car I settled for a fiber one bar. They aren't too shabby! Not quite as good as the aforementioned candy, but pretty darn good.

On my way out to the car I saw a van advertising a weight loss program. In big letters on the back window it read, "Cheat and still lose pounds". What the !?!?! Cheat on what, cheat on who? I know it meant cheat on your diet. Well, if that is part of the diet plan they are advertising doesn't that mean it's not cheating?

I have thought about this concept of cheating. Rather, I like to think of it as lying. I am not on some restricted diet. I count calories, nothing is off limits. So I don't ever really consider myself cheating. If I had eaten the cadbury mini eggs, I would have had to adjust the rest of the day's calorie intake. Of course, I am not always perfect. I have gone over on my calories. That is when the guilt sets in.

However, I have thought about the times I have lied. Lied to myself. I said I would stick to my goals and sometimes I don't. I told myself I would eat 5 fruits and vegetables a day and sometimes I don't. Sometimes, while on the treadmill I make promises to myself like how much further I will run before slowing to a walk. Sometimes (but not very often) I walk sooner than I said I would. I told myself I would only have one helping of pasta last night and I had 1 1/2. And so on.

Would we lie to our spouses, our children, our friends, etc? I sure hope not! So why do we lie to ourselves? We deserve to be honest with ourselves. This may start with re-evaluating goals. Are our goals realistic expectations of ourselves? Once we have realistic goals set , we need to be true to ourselves. We are worth the same respect we give others.

Of course, we are not perfect. Sometimes we mess up. It is in those times, we have to offer ourselves the same kindness and mercy we offer others. Hopefully, we forgive others when they mess up. Hopefully, we can forgive ourselves, too. So I will forgive myself for considering having a bag of mini-cadbury eggs today because I told myself that I would wait until April to have one.

Have a great day and remember to be true to yourselves!